Showing posts with label nightmares. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nightmares. Show all posts

Friday, March 20, 2015

When the Wind Blows



The Woodstock Writer's Festival Story Slam was last night.  Great good fun!  Exciting to see so many come out for the spoken word.  Thanks Woodstock Writer's Festival for making old arts so super sexy!  Many more events through the weekend.  Check it out: http://woodstockwriters.com/

What I would have read if I'd signed up in time (Must contain the phrase- When the Wind Blows):

When my Papa moved into our house to die, I imagined a sweet old man puttering around, till one day he wouldn’t wake up, and we’d all cry. That’s not what happened, nor who arrived. He was a gale, of hurricane force, that knocked me off course, tempered me, and left me refinished. 

My mother always blamed ill temper on the Santa Anas, downslope winds that originate inland, and drive everyone crazy, while racing southwest to the water of the California coastline.  Devil wind.  Santa Anas whoosh all of the smog away.  In their wake, everything is crisp, blue skies, a desert landscape climbing to snow capped mountains.  During Santa Anas there’s a notable rise in crime, freeway gun battles, Hollywood actors in rehab,100 mile winds, forest fires, sinus infections, and generally bad tempers all around. Some surgeons say that blood won’t clot predictably during the Santa Anas, and they adjust their operating schedules accordingly.

When the wind blows off the desert, hot and dry, or fresh off the mountains, skin blistering cold, beware. This is what I know of my family, and their moods. This is the East wind my father brought with him from the West.  He was a Santa Ana.

My Papa was kidnapped by Lewy Body dementia. Held hostage by its hallucinations, he held us all captive there too.  
Papa had caregivers around the clock.  A revolving cast of personalities that came and went, depending upon their capacity for aggressive insanity.  Papa sent one nurse to the E.R.  
While awake, he was visited by the ghosts of long gone friends and family, with whom he brokered forgiveness, and assigned blame, all while offering them breakfast.
At night, this ninety-four year old, retired rocket scientist, who could barely leave his wheelchair when awake, was a spy on a mission in his dreams. In those dreams turned nightmare, we were all the enemy, unseen voices, ever on the attack. He bit, he punched, he protected himself. He crawled from under his bed, as the wreckage of bombed buildings.  He balanced on the bedside table to wave in incoming aircraft.  We lived at the eye of this storm.

But Santa Ana winds are seasonal, inflaming everything as they whirl towards the Pacific Ocean, to be absorbed and neutralized.  The devil wind always ends.  The crime rate returns to normal, and more blood clots according to routine.  Papa’s gone now, and, as in the wake of the Santa Anas, the atmosphere is recharged, it’s clean. When the wind blows, sometimes the cradle rocks, and the bough does break, and crocuses still poke their heads up out of the snow.

Friday, February 13, 2015

Nick Cave and the Night Mare's Monsters

When I was imagining the Night Mare's monsters, yes some are gross and slimy, made of machine parts seamed with jelly, but I was also dreaming more whimsical beings, which can also be scary, and delightful, so almost scarier, because your brain is confused about how you ought to be responding.

The artist Nick Cave's Sound Suits are the kind of beings I had in my head, not traditional, unsettlingly fresh and new, and yet... Sesame Street off-kilter.

Love your work Nick Cave!

https://vimeo.com/94575179
https://www.facebook.com/pages/Nick-Cave-Visual-Artist/299253877181





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Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Papa

My Papa passed away yesterday morning, peacefully, in his sleep.  The nightmare has ended for him, and for us too I suppose.  Hospice is a gift.  Rest in peace, Papa.


Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Best 3 star review I've ever gotten!




Wi

3.0 out of 5 stars
 
Your worst nightmare!!January 14, 2015
This review is from: It's a Nightmare (The Gold Stone Girl Book 1) (Kindle Edition)
It’s A Nightmare
By Nicole Quinn

It’s A Nightmare by Nicole Quinn delves into one possible dystopia where we have completely lost ourselves as human beings. In Winkin city, women live as slaves, danger lurks around every corner. Fear rules over this place and oppression controls all.

The Night Mare, a demon of unspeakable horror, has become God of this world. Few know how it all fell apart. None dare to oppose the terror. Horrible creatures roam freely, keeping the masses in subjugation. Dreams have faded into obscurity, for who would subject a beautiful thing to such filth.

Enter Mina, Born of tree. Raised off of the grid by her loving and strange parents, Bubba and Dee Dee, she must question the ways of her terrible world; she must fight to survive registration, to be free. Freak, chimera, they call her. Those who serve the Night Mare, try to strip Mina of her will, dignity, and dreams. For only in dreams can anyone ever truly be free and the nightmare won’t allow that. She must stay strong. She must learn the truth before she too is broken.

This book pulled me in from the beginning with gripping, visceral action scenes and gut-wrenching turmoil. The in-depth description of this piece had me immersed throughout. I found myself neck-deep in the worst possible situations with this cast of tormented captives. This book is full of fantastic creatures, great and terrible; choking cityscapes reaching the clouds; and the kind of deep emotion rarely felt in today’s modern novel.

Mina herself is a well-developed character, with realistic emotional layers and an intriguing backstory. I especially liked the “Born of Tree” and “Chimera” angle this writer weaved into Mina’s makeup. I felt they added a little balance to the evil surrounding her, a sense of power and hope.

Although hard to follow at times, the plot flowed smoothly when it did progress forward. I felt It's a Nightmare moved too slowly at times, favoring gritty visuals over actually gaining ground. The book may have needed a little more distinct contrast to its sickening transgressions in order to feel more satisfying.

The characters within were organic and alive. I enjoyed Dee Dee and Bubba, Mina and Bob; and I especially loved the Night mare. The edition of Demons into this book made it feel so much bigger than any dystopia I’ve read, the darkness, so much more real, menacing. This sadistic villain even had character development throughout, which I was surprised with, as did the rest of the cast. I would’ve liked to have had more characters to fall in love with. Aside from the ones I just mentioned, I didn’t care about much of the other cast involved.

The writing itself in It's a Nightmare was phenomenal. I was never bored with Nicole's unique lingo and perfect word balance. The dialogue and narration made it feel like I was transported to another time and place – a place I never want to be. From colors representing social status to stones tied directly a woman’s personality and worth, It's a Nightmare is fleshed out with the best of them, and needs little development in the way of believable culture.

This wasn’t my favorite read, but I will never forget it. If you are looking for an original story with dark themes and mature subject matter, then look no further. Be warned that It’s A Nightmare is bordering on feminist. Although this likely isn't the purpose of the book, as a male reader, I felt ridiculed and somewhat belittled, in a world where men are reduced to misogynistic savages; however, its positive messages were made clear to me in the end: strength, iron will; perseverance, and a willingness to face your deepest fears. This book is something anyone looking to tread on the darker side should check out. Thank you, Nicole. Keep it up!

J.B. Maynard